Considering the furore that’s going on about the Cardinal Grand Cross, I thought it might be time to talk a bit more about ‘bad transits’. I addressed this before in a past post but as I’m being attacked from all sides, I thought it would be appropriate.
When I say attacked, I mean Mars. Specifically retrograde Mars and transiting Saturn opposite natal Mars – and a healthy smack of Uranus about to conjunct the Midheaven. As retrograde Mars in my 3rd house kicked out of gear with an opposition to Mercury in the 9th house, my internet up and died. Well, what actually happened was this…
- 3 Bulbs in my kitchen spotlights blew.
- I burned myself on the cooker
- My electrics tripped 5 times until I found the culprit was the kettle – burned out element!
- I got mad about something (it takes a lot to get me mad, seriously!)
- I got a comment on this blog suggesting I (and people like me) are entirely holding back the human race and to ‘stop bothering with this nonsense’. I was tempted to reply that Mars was exactly opposite Mercury that day but I bit my tongue instead 😀
- My internet began dropping disconnection to the point where I am still unable to offer consultations – grrrrr
- On the first day my internet provider tried to reset my line, it crashed both my laptop and my PC. Cue furious backing up of work, just in case…
- The crash on my laptop caused a software malfunction which then took several hours to resolve.
- I now need to wait 10 days to see if the broadband line stabilises.
I’m being taught something about surrender. I’m getting the Four of Swords and the Hanged Man in the Tarot over and over – and sometimes the Devil. Surrender to the process whispers transiting Neptune trine to Juno (exact as I write). This is about looking at your commitments. Mars is now conjunct my South Node. Release it to the wind! Mars wants me to re-engage with my true motivations. Saturn just wants me to do the work. And I’m fighting it every step of the way because I’ve always fought to survive. It’s my natal Mars in Taurus in the 10th house.
But the universe wants me to stop fighting and listen. It wants me to stop, to slow down, to sort my thoughts out. And Saturn opposite natal Mars is a no-brainer anyway. I won’t win that battle!
During this time I had a conversation about losing and finding faith. It made me think about my own faith. Jupiter is transiting in my 12th house.
“Do you really believe in where you’re going?” Jupiter asks as he too squares my Midheaven.
I do, but sometimes Saturn makes me doubt. Fear gets in the way and anxiety kicks in. My throat is sore from inner screaming with frustration with endless internet disconnections. I’m not used to things working slowly – Aries stellium you see. Transiting Pluto square the Midheaven is about control. If I can’t control it (Pluto) it makes me anxious (Uranus). Pluto says that has to stop. Do something different. Change your reactions.
How do you work with ‘bad transits’? My solution is to do something that expresses the best of a challenging square or a dicey opposition.
So with Mars I am taking time to think about my goals rather than falling from day to day hoping for the best (my usual tactic!) and working myself into the ground without getting clear of where it is leading. I’m working on controlling inner frustration and speaking nicely to the customer services people at my ISP instead of spitting swear words which are in my head. I’m actively practising letting go of the anger.
I’m taking a more disciplined approach to my work to please Saturn, sometimes timing myself in hourly blocks so that my mind doesn’t wander and start fretting.
To sooth Uranus, I’m reading lots of astrology, studying. listening to podcasts, writing my book (transiting Uranus in the 9th) and of course email readings.
It doesn’t take much to please Jupiter but I’m endeavouring to have faith, to trust that everything happens for a reason. I believe that. I live by that. But sometimes it’s tested to the max.
Oh and I forgot that Pluto is coming up to square Venus and my Midheaven from the 6th house so I’m fasting.
It’s about engaging in a dialogue with these archetypal energies instead of shouting at them or trying to ignore them. Neither of those tactics work by the way, I have tried.
I notice the little things that happen that may seem inconsequential to others. Important conversations that come out of nowhere. Feedback on readings that confirms my thoughts and re-inspires me over and over again. The direction of a bird in flight. Sometimes I hear music. I’m finding time to write. Often I am reminded to let go of my ego which says things ‘should’ be like this. Because when the ego steps aside, the soul can guide me.
I dreamed I was at the edge of the universe in a tiny spaceship in a place and time that was beyond everything else. There were no stars. The end of the universe was a membrane between blackness and blackness. I re-engaged my ship and jumped back to our solar system, jumping back like Mars. Suddenly I was on Earth wondering why someone had put false stars in the sky and didn’t use the real ones. The Great Bear looked like a tacky store display! It turns out, I was still in the wrong time on Earth – far in the future when all the stars had moved away and so the world governments had hung pretend stars in the sky to make people feel comforted and not alone. But it wasn’t the truth. False comforts don’t work. Saturn requires that I am present in the here and now, never mind what Uranus is doing up there. Because being present takes effort and self-discipline. It’s the grown up response. It’s what will makes me stronger in the end.
When I woke, it was still night and I looked out at the real stars. My dream brought me back here, to the right time, the right world and the true comfort of stars shining.
I told one of my clients recently, use the planetary energy to its best, surrender to the rest. So that’s what I’m doing, surrendering instead of fighting. Because through surrender, there’s enlightenment – eventually.
Email Readings are available whilst I patiently wait for my internet issues to resolve…
By the time I finished reading your blog I was singing Simon and Garfunkel’s “The 59th Street Bridge Song (Feelin’ Groovy)”
Slow down, you move too fast.
You got to make the morning last.
Just kicking down the cobble stones.
Looking for fun and feelin’ groovy.
What cha knowing?
I’ve come to watch your flowers growing.
Ain’t cha got no rhymes for me?
Got no deeds to do,
No promises to keep.
I’m dappled and drowsy and ready to sleep.
Let the morning time drop all its petals on me.
Life, I love you,
All is groovy.
It’s been said everyone is exactly where they’re supposed to be and by the sounds of your dream… THIS IS YOUR PLACE IN TIME. Stop reading. Stop analyzing. Let “the morning” unfold. When those 10 days of waiting are up I suspect you’ll be very much in your comfort zone.
Hi Crista – Oh I love that song! Going to listen to it now. Thanks for the reminder 🙂 This is why I wanted to write about it all. Because it is too easy sometimes to get into defining transits as ‘good’ or ‘bad and ego shouts far too loudly, lol! The dream was so vivid, very beautiful in many ways. I cut the first part out as the article was getting a little long but initially I was just hanging in space, watching the cosmos. It was like being in a Hubble picture (or the film Contact if you’ve seen it)!
Finally I was able to wrap my head around all this grand cardinal cross information. Thanks for the timely post.
Glad it helps. Thanks Paula 🙂
I have Chiron in the *th house, which Pluto is transiting now.
Yesterday I sent $2000 to the IRS for taxes. (ugh)
Thanks for your article! You are so right. “Be A Grownup!”
Eighth House! (ha!)
Thank you for great information. It is really so helpful! This Grand Cardinal Cross does hit my chart.
As Mother Teresa said to a would be postulant “Grow where you are planted”
Hi Kathleen – Love that quote, thank you! I shall keep that 🙂
Thanks Sylvia 🙂
Lol, 8th house Chiron here too Ellen. This grown up stuff is hard work sometimes, isn’t it! 🙂
‘What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger’ 🙂
Absolutely Jacintha haha!
I’m so glad that I found this article. Your daily posts on instagram help me a lot.
I liked the idea of engaging in a dialogue with archetypal energies and I will try it absolutely.
Having my Chiron return in 8th house, Tr Neptune right on my natal Sun is quite difficult. Also my MC-IC axis is Taurus-Scorpio… So it’s a very intense period. What you wrote about Saturn and Uranus resonates with me. And I would really appreciate if you tell something about Neptune too. How can I work with him?
Spiritual practices, Meditation are already big part of my daily life but I’m sur that I miss something about Neptune.
Thank you also for that old article about saying goodbye to father, it is a jewel.
He Tenor, apologies for the late response and thank you for your reply. Wherever Neptune is involved, I would normally suggest meditation and spiritual practice but as you already do that, maybe you could look at another aspect of Neptune which is imagination and the higher arts. So photography, painting, even finding movies that resonate with where you are in life. Alternatively voluntary work, supporting a charity/cause close to your heart in whatever way you can. Or there is Metta meditation for planet wide healing, walking by the beach, simply blessings each cup of water you drink. Reading or writing poetry about and for Neptune and/or reading up on associated myths and legends. and finally, the practice of forgiveness (in whatever way that is right for you) and/or acceptance.