I cried when I heard the news. Robin Williams was one of my favourite actors. Yes there are terrible things going on in the world, yes there are suicides every day. But sometimes, a single person’s crisis just touches you deeply because it reaches into you and lights up your own dark places.
Sometimes life is unfathomable and so unbelievably painful that all you want is for the pain to stop. I’ve been there and done that – three times to be exact. It’s tempting to erase that last sentence and stick with the astrology. Stick with the facts and not appear vulnerable or weak because oh my Gods I’m an astrologer/spiritual guide/tarot reader/writer and I must be perfect. Yes, it’s still my demon too. It’s why I can go to dark places with my clients, if they need to. It’s why I have a passion for helping others. It’s how I’ve grown in awareness and learned to own my ‘stuff’. It’s why I have spent many years trying to figure myself out, found coping mechanisms and occasionally screamed into the darkness. It’s why sometimes I can step into extraordinary light because I’ve witnessed its opposite. I’m not erasing these lines because it’s part of my experience, and damn it we need to talk about these things. Because it happens too much, too often and so many people are just too afraid to talk about it. People don’t know how to handle it, judge it, get angry about it. There but for the grace of God go I…
I’ve said so many times, there are no secrets. The stuff we hide in the 12th house, these are all our secrets. Shame, fear, inhibition, guilt, regret, jealously, rage. These are all our 8th house Plutonic demons that we try to sink to the bottom of the ocean. And Neptune tells us what we think it ought to be. It whispers garbled secrets, promises of paradise. Neptune offers you a glamour to hide behind, a little spell casting to deflect from the ‘horror’ of the real you. But when the spell fades, there it is – the ocean murky with pain and despair and a terrible feeling that something absolutely essential is missing.
Robin Williams has the North Node in Pisces conjunct the Moon and the South Node in Virgo conjunct Venus. Uniquely sensitive, there is a sense that his emotions were tossed on the great tides of life. From great highs to great lows, he could mirror any character and draw upon a profound love. Neptune powerfully placed in the 12th house echoes this yearning for connection and perhaps a pull to return to the great cosmic womb. Compounding this, Neptune is conjunct Isis – it’s like piecing together the soul. It immediately makes me think of one of his most moving films ‘What Dreams May Come’ which explores the concept of the afterlife. Asteroid Sphinx was conjunct his Sun – it’s as though there was a never ending mystery about himself and his identity that he was trying to unravel.
At the time of his death, Mars had been transiting through the 12th house, stirring up the unconscious. Pluto was in opposition to his tight Mars-Uranus conjunction in the 8th house. There were some deep and evidently distressful psychic shifts occurring. The progressed Moon was also moving through the natal 8th house – traditionally sometimes a challenging time as we sift through psychic debris, come to terms with death and changes and occasionally making life changing decisions. The Sun had just passed over natal Pluto triggering transiting Pluto perhaps into violent action with Mars/Uranus.
But it is through the Lunar Return that we can perhaps see why now. With the natal Moon conjunct the North Node it is perhaps not surprising that he was sensitive to Lunar motion. Robin’s death was recorded at 12.02pm 11th August 2014. His Lunar Return would have been at 9pm that evening. It seems as though that Lunar Return chart was already in effect.
The Lunar Return is striking in itself putting the Moon directly on the Ascendant with Neptune in the 12th (echoing the natal chart) and Chiron in the first. My immediate reaction to this was that life may have seemed too painful (Chiron) and he just wanted peace (Neptune). There is a sense of surrendering to the pull of the cosmos – the womb and the tomb. The Ascendant Sabian of the Lunar Return is ‘Men Traveling a Narrow Path, Seeking Illumination‘.
The North Node of the Lunar Return is in the 8th house traditionally associated with death. The Sun is in the 6th house with Lilith – haunted by old illness perhaps. I note Venus on the anaretic 29th degree of Cancer and both Venus and Jupiter in the 5th house. It makes me feel as though perhaps he knew how much and how deeply he was loved – but the quincunx from Jupiter to the Moon on the Ascendant made it hard for him to understand why. Just looking to the Ascendant here feels like drowning in emotion – overwhelming.
But when we put the natal chart around the Lunar Return chart, that is where the picture is fully revealed. The natal nodal axis is right on the Ascendant – Descendant axis. I have noted many times that the nodal axis crossing this angle highlights a feeling of life and death. Here it immediately shows to me a karmic choice – to live or to die. Most often I see this connection of the Nodes with the Ascendant-Descendant as a metaphorical journey. Sadly in this case it was literal. With the Ascendant of the natal chart conjunct the Lunar Return Saturn, it became a reality.
Note that in the chart for the time of death, the Nodes echo the position of the natal nodes lying across the return chart Ascendant-Descendant axis. The traditional malefics sit in the first house of this chart – ‘self harm’. The Moon is closing in to a conjunction to Neptune – escape, despair [of an actor with the 5th house connection]. Pandora too is exactly on the Descendant of this chart. All the ‘evils’ had erupted out. Perhaps Pandora here represents an absolute loss of hope – or perhaps the hope of a better place.
Robin Williams was a brilliant actor with the capacity to move the audience from laughter to tears. Endearing and kind, he was extremely sensitive to the criticism of others but perhaps with Venus conjunct the South Node in the 10th, he was his own harshest critic. I hope that he has found the peace he was looking for. I wish he had stayed.
Astrology can certainly show times of crisis. As an astrologer, it’s part of my job to uncover these times, to make the client aware of when something may be particularly challenging but also to offer ways to use the energy available. But sometimes, it’s also about looking away from the chart to look at the person themselves because they are the ones living this energy. Essentially its all about love and compassion and walking alongside for a little while, holding up a lamp that was lit when I too was in the dark.
If you know someone who is suffering from depression, call them – today.
If you know someone who is alone, go and see them.
And if you are suffering, reach out to someone – please.
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Image Source – “Robin Williams 2011a (2)” by Eva Rinaldi ? Flickr: Licensed under Creative Commons Attribution-Share Alike 2.0 via Wikimedia Commons
Time of Death Source – Coroner’s Report
Insightful and right on the money. As always.
Beautifully written, Leah. There is so much fear projection out there disguised as empathy, that it is comforting to read something genuine. Amongst the meteor shower, off you go, Robin, to rejoin the stars!
Thanks Maria. Love the image of him flying up in the meteor shower 🙂
Thank you for this. You have said it all so well. I cried when I heard the news yesterday.
Thank you Cyndyava
Even though you’re an Equal House system astrologer, and I am not, as always, your writings prove that it’s not houses alone or even the missing pieces of your using asteroids and my rarely doing so. Your writings, Leah, show the incredible knowledge that continues to pour forth in this vast field. For every bit of astrology one knows, it’s a never ending process of learning, of self-expansion in our own understandings, and hopefully in the understandings of those we serve.
Great work, Leah! This was fabulous!
Thank you Michelle! 🙂
So many of the celebrity suicides, many from drugs, take place on or very near the Full Moon! Some say it intensifies the reaction to drugs but nevertheless intensifies whatever emotions are bouncing around. This Full Moon formed a very close T-square with Saturn, planet most often associated with Depression!
“Robin Williams was a brilliant actor with the capacity to move the audience from laughter to tears”
And YOU are a brilliant writer with the capacity to move me (and others) to tears.
Grand water trines can be soooo intense, especially with the asc involved. And mars uranus conj involved. Yowser. It can be too much to be confronted with. People will withdraw. It can be taken wrong. As a vote of no confidence. Not that I have one in my natal chart or anything. Looking at the charts of the intense in my face people, I get it. I’m one of them too. Not that other grand trines don’t have their particular brand of irritant as well. Am getting a feel for the elements at the moment.
Hi Notch – I agree. Trines tend to be viewed very positively but they can also indicate an unstoppable flow of energy that can become overwhelming too.
Awww – thank you Jacintha 🙂
Leah, thank you for writing about Robin Williams, so gracefully! His stay on planet Earth certainly brought a lot of light. Now, the light of his soul is free to soar among the stars, and entertain… .
Thank you, Robin!
Thanks for reading Vjai. Yes, I hope too that he is flying peacefully amongst the stars 🙂
Very touching and very well written Leah.This is very interesting post.Especially about Robin Williams..
Thanks Tania 🙂
I’m obviously reading this years after his death. However, it still brought me to tears. He was an amazing soul and surely is missed. Thank you for your work here, I have been trying to understand the event astrologically for some time.
Same here Linnea. I read this just now and was touched by the article as well. Good job Leah. I’m not sure how I got here… I think I googled the word “Crisis & 8th house”.
I have an 8th house placement, so I was curious :).
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